English, my second lenguage

  Using English as a Second Lenguage

My relatioship with the english lenguage begin when I was little, in that time I had about 11 years old, and my mom start to study in a Institute, here in Chile, Intérprete de inglés. I saw her study, put pencils in her mouth to practice the speak in english, resolve test in home, etc. I think I am very good imitator by default, or by intertia, so I’m not sure if I learn to speak in english because of that or if I learn it watching the subtitles of Paparazzi of Lady Gaga in Youtube, or even when Netflix doesn’t exist and I like to search Tumblr movies with subtitles in google like Palo Alto or Submarine… 

The mix between what I was watching, earing and reading make me relation not only the lenguage with an image, reading lips and that kind of closerness with the other world, the other lenguage world; but even make me relation the emotions with the english lenguage, so sometimes I find myself explaning in my mind everything that I feel in english, witch in a moment I tough it was a good thing but i discover that I do that because helps me to see life like a movie, like is not real, like I’m an a caracter of my own film, and that is not always good because it makes me depersonalize so Im tryng to change that.